I'm so glad I joined Campus Crusade and not some other CCA where I have to work so hard like I'm in SJAB. At least if I work my ass off, I know it's for God, and not for other people. Only now I realized I planned so much and did so much, was solely for people. Humans. Sinners. Well it's not so bad and I'd still very much love to do things like that, but a majority of my time still has to go to God.
I think I'm over my years where I was enthusiastic in SJAB, organising activities, camps and whatever. I want to give whatever time I can to Him now. I owe Him too much. I will evangelise and witness to campus students, not just in Singapore, but also a chance overseas. I will serve Him by playing in the worship ministry, and also hopefully becoming a spiritual multiplier in Campus Crusade. And most important of all, I will praise and worship Him day and night. I want to do the best for Him.
People ask me if I'm happy. I think I've never been happier in life. I'm really truly happy. I think this is what they call "breakthrough". The power of God in me is so strong now, I want to keep it burning. I have never been so happy.
I won't ever conform. Because I'm God's child. I will do what I know is truly deeply right.