Unequal yoking
Last night's combined practice was different. There wasn't much playing at all. We only spent the last 10 minutes of the night going through Awesome God and a couple of mandarin songs.
Nonetheless, I grew. Felt it in me that I was growing stronger in my walk with God. The entire night was spent on all the musicians sharing from the heart. It wasn't planned that we would be sharing for 2 hours, but I'm very sure it was planned by God. We allowed it to flow and I thought last night was great. We took turns to share about how we started to play in the worship ministry, what worship meant to us and how we prepare for worship sessions week after week.
I really really thank God for these people. They truly the ones that are God-sent. Without them, quite frankly I don't think I would have grown as quickly as I would have loved to, be it spiritually or musically in the worship department. I was only able to take over as worship leader in my church because of everything I've learnt and experienced from One Accord's worship team. God is graceful.
Do not be unequally yoked together with unbelievers. For what fellowship has righteousness with lawlessness ? And what communion has light with darkness ? And what accord has Christ with Belial ? Or what part has a believer with an unbeliever ? And what agreement has the temple of God with idols ? For you are the temple of the living God. As God has said: " I will dwell in them And walk among them. I will be their God. And they shall be My people." Therefore "Come out from among them And be seperate, says the Lord. Do not touch what is unclean, And I will receive you. "I will be a Father to you, And you shall be My sons and daughters, Says the LORD Almighty."
2 Corinthians 6:14-18
Thanks to Joy, Im beginning to believe her that we should resist being unequally yoked. At our young age, it is difficult to do that, but we should try our very best. Now, I myself refuse to be unequally yoked.
Take yesterday for example. My classmates were psycho-ing me to hang out with them outside school since we end classes at 11.30 am and our soccer match was at 3.30 pm. The only thing was that, I would have to miss the prayer meeting at Crusade room, and my GEMs class. Well okay, I really wouldn't have felt so bad had I missed my GEMs lesson, but I just didn't want to miss the prayer meeting. It was tempting but no, I would have none of that. I went for the prayer meeting and it was so fulfilling. The prayer warriors were praying for all students in SP and all the lost souls in the world. I couldn't have spent my 1 hour any better. It really felt so good.
Through experience, I've really found being together with God's people gives me more satisfaction. There's this unexplained peace in me. Yes it is enjoyable to be around my friends from school, from SJAB, from my neighbourhood, but it gets very empty sometimes. Just pointless fun. Many people don't know, but sub-consciously we get drawn away from God by the company we keep. Nothing can really compare when I'm with fellow Christians working for Him. I feel alot happier when I'm with the Campus Crusaders or the worship teams from both churches. We should be spending our time on mixing around with people who are serious about God.
I refuse to believe that my time in my youth should be for myself. It's not time for me to enjoy myself. I don't want to look back on this period when I'm older just so that I could be reminded of how much fun I had in my youth. No. When I'm older, I want to look back and be reminded of how I willingly spent every minute doing the work of God. Be it evangelising, or serving, because in our youth, it's the best time to serve God wholeheartedly. It's definitely going to be so hard to do as much when we've graduated and we need to move on to NS or work. We don't have all the time in the world. I don't care if God is going to give me good times in Poly, because it's in me now that I just want to serve Him. I'll tell Him, "No God, let me serve You instead. " Besides, I don't think my lifetime will ever be enough to finish doing my heart's desires for Him. The only time we can truly let go and enjoy our lives, is when we've gone home to our God.
I'm so glad I joined Campus Crusade and not some other CCA where I have to work so hard like I'm in SJAB. At least if I work my ass off, I know it's for God, and not for other people. Only now I realized I planned so much and did so much, was solely for people. Humans. Sinners. Well it's not so bad and I'd still very much love to do things like that, but a majority of my time still has to go to God.
I think I'm over my years where I was enthusiastic in SJAB, organising activities, camps and whatever. I want to give whatever time I can to Him now. I owe Him too much. I will evangelise and witness to campus students, not just in Singapore, but also a chance overseas. I will serve Him by playing in the worship ministry, and also hopefully becoming a spiritual multiplier in Campus Crusade. And most important of all, I will praise and worship Him day and night. I want to do the best for Him.
People ask me if I'm happy. I think I've never been happier in life. I'm really truly happy. I think this is what they call "breakthrough". The power of God in me is so strong now, I want to keep it burning. I have never been so happy.
I won't ever conform. Because I'm God's child. I will do what I know is truly deeply right.
signing off at 7:17 PM
