Unplugged & Raw

Vision

There was something that happened over last week. Small as it may seem, it's really significant to me.

Last week on 12 Jan, Thursday night, as I was lying in bed ready to sleep, I suddenly thought of Robin, my Discipleship Group Leader. I really didn't know why then. Out of the blue, I had this very very clear vision of him in my head. I didn't know why, but suddenly I vividly recalled that he was having tests. And somehow, I remembered that one of those tests fell on 13 Jan, Friday. A few weeks back he asked for our MST dates so that he could pray for our tests, and in turn I asked for his too. However, I accidentally erased the SMS so I had nothing to remind me of his test dates. Yet, I was brought to consciousness of his test, just before I slept, on the night just before his test. (Actually it was already past 12 a.m, so it was on the morning of his test) So I got up to pray for him, constantly asking God to grant him strength and wisdom.

Today, we had our first Discipleship Group after a long layoff from the e-Learning week, holidays and MST week. So we started sharing how we've been.

Then Robin gave thanksgiving. He shared with us, that there was this night where he was studying for his test. It didn't go well as he got stuck at almost every question he attempted. It was a math test he was having the next day. Because of this, he got very panicky. He didn't know how he was going to get through his test the next day. The next day came. His test was in the afternoon and had lectures from the morning til then. Worried about his test, he didn't pay attention during his lectures, and constantly attempted those math questions. To his surprise and relieve, he was able to complete and understand most of them. He did those questions without getting stuck. And when his test came, it went rather smoothly for him, and he's confident of getting high grades for it.

I asked him which night was it.

And he said Thursday night, 12 Jan.

Isn't it amazing how God works ? I told Robin about how I got a vision of him that night, and how I felt this voice telling me to pray for his test. He smiled, and we both agreed on one thing, that it was God who put Robin into my head, so that I would pray for him, to ensure he gets through that tough period. It really is amazing, how I was all so ready to fall into deep sleep, when I got this sudden vision that Robin needs prayer for his test.

But I tell you what's most amazing, is that God actually used me to do His work. No amount of words can describe that feeling. Of all, He chose me. It may be something really really small and trivial, but the fact that the Mighty Creator of the Universe called upon a sinner like me to help a precious child of His. I'm really really not worthy. And the fact that God used the most amazing ways to talk to me, vision and voice, is definitely of divine calling. I think it's the very first time such a thing has ever happened to me. I definitely do not want it to be the last. May God continue to use me, not because I'll be able to boast about it, but because I'll be a humble servant for Him.

Robin challenged me to become a Discipleship Group Leader myself when I'm promoted to Year 2. I'd really love that but it would come with a big responsibility. But nothing beats building up the lives of juniors and seeing them grow. I've been doing that since Secondary school, but now, let me do it for God.

Win. Build. Send.

signing off at 11:41 PM

Monday, January 16, 2006